Once again, I have failed to keep up with the blog. Part of my delay is that I made a pact with myself about the blog. I decided I didn't want the blog to only be what it currently is....post some pictures of Braxton, brag about him a little, and then move on. I decided that's too superficial. Of course I will still do this to some extent cuz I love talking about my baby boy and showing him off to the world. But I want the blog to become more of a journal for me as well. I want to dig deep and really write about how I am feeling and what I am thinking. It just hasn't happened yet. I am finding that it is hard enough just to do life right now, let alone taking time to write about it on the computer. Being a full-time working mom is tough. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but it's still taking me quite a bit of effort and time to adjust to it all. And those of you that know me, know how much of a perfectionist i can be. I want to be the best mom, the best wife, the best homemaker, and the best employee all at the same time. And guess what...I'm none of those. But I am having to come to terms with the fact that that is ok. I think just being all of those roles at the same time, whether I am the best at them or not, is hard enough. And I should look at it as a great accomplishment that I am managing to do all of those to some extent or another without completely losing my head. Right? I may not keep my house as clean as I should these days. And I may not be accomplishing things at work quite as quickly as I used to. But I'm still doing it and getting it done eventually. And for that, I am proud! I have a much greater appreciation for all the working mothers in this world now, especially my own mother. It sure isn't as easy as most people think!
So there we go. It's a start to my personal pact to be more open and real and let my feelings spill out on "paper". Hopefully, I can keep it up. Now a quick peek at the "Little Man".
4 Months Old
16 pounds, 7 oz, 26 in. long, 17" head
(all about 90th percentile)
Braxton turned 4 months old on January 3rd. He is 1/3 of a year old already. I can't believe it. And he doesn't stop growing. He checked out great t his 4 month check-up and didn't cry quite as hard for his shots this time. That made mommy feel better! He is making new sounds every day and he loves to play and giggle. Tickling brings out the most precious laughs from him!
I wanted to post some pictures from his first Christmas, but the computer is not liking it right now. So maybe next time. Enough for today. Time to be lazy for the rest of the day before heading back to work tomorrow.
